Reflection: Holiday and Books

Hi, everyone! Today is the start of my school holiday. Yesterday, I just got call that my training trip is canceled for some reason. Ah,and I already asked permission to take leave from my teaching work for this December. Also, I didn`t participate in AKLTG coach training, so that means I cannot go for coaching this upcoming camp.  That is because I plan to focus on the project. But this plan to focus has to be postponed until the first week of January. I am looking forward for that J, I really really really want to work.

So, I ask myself, what am I gonna do now? I used to be very busy working in every waking hours of my life. I still have some work, like teaching my landlord`s sons, and preparing the project. But, I have a lot of spare time. Suddenly I feel VERY unproductive. Hehehe. Maybe this is because my wish last week, when I had my exam. I wished that I have a super longgggg holiday, when I can just sleep like normal girl, read, write and have fun without having to worry about school and work. I never imagined that my wish can be granted this fast.

    

 I  believe that even if I am not busy anymore, I can still make the most of my holiday. Hehehe wanna know my plan? I plan to read more, finish my junior stylist class, teach my aunts how to play with make up,  create more teaching ideas, write more, and spend more time with my family and my boyfriend J.  

I wanna share with you some books that I currently read

Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte

It is a classic book about the poor and plain Jane Eyre. She begins her life as a lonely orpha in he household of a hateful aunt. Despite the oppresion she endures at home, and the later torture of boarding school, Jane manages to emerge with her spirit and integrity unbroken. She becomes a governess at Thornfield Hall, where she finds herself falling in love with her employer Mr. Rochester. But, an explosive secret tears apart their relationship, forcing Jane to face poverty and isolation once again.

It is a very VERY very good book. If you love English literature and art, you will love this book. I have read this book twice. The first one was back when I took Honor English III at John Bapst Mem. High. Then the second one? I guess last year ya. I am not sure.  I learn a lot from this character Jane Eyre. Waaa, everytime I read this book, my spirit got strengthened. There are a lot of aspects in Jane Eyre that reminds me of myself. She is so tough and has unbroken spirit. She faces so many obstacles in her life and still stay strong. That is why, whenever I face obstacles, I think of Jane and think of her and beautiful end of her life hehehe.

I DO – A bridal make up book by Gusnaldi

     This book is new, and I bought this  for a very cheap! Only Rp 25000  or around $3 Hehehe.  When I found this, my jaw was dropped ~>~. Gusnaldi is my favorite make up artist and to find his book in a very affordable price is totally a miracle. Btw, I bought this on Gramedia Sale. ( Gramedia is one of a famous bookstore in Indonesia).

                                                                    “I do” book is very pretty, full colours, and I learn so much about make up from this book. I am supposed to learn bridal make up after I finish my senior stylist class, which is two levels away from my level now. Hehehe but I love to learn ahead. For me knowledge is knowledge. Whether it is in my level or upper level. It is a knowledge anyway, I ussually just swallow it all. Grasp it, understand it, practice it and let it refresh my life.

Lets take a look inside!

      Reading this book took me like 10 minutes, but practicing it is going to take me my entire holiday. Hahaha probably it is such a good thing I bought this book. Hopefully, by the end of my holiday, I can find a cute make up for my wedding ( Ah, I speak like it is going to happen soon >.<) Hehehe.

Applied Psychology in Human Resource Management – by Wayne F. Cascio and Herman Aguinis.

I borrow this book from my school library, but because it is going to be close for school holiday next week, I am going to just copy the parts I need. It is a very nice book, understandable, and if you plan to be a professor in HRM just like me, you should read this hehehe. Well, not only professor wannabe ya, if you plan to be a human resource manager, this is a good book to read. It is pretty much telling me about recruitment, personnel testing, training, development, ethical issue and much more.

Balanced Life – by Pat Gelsinger

    This book is written by Pat Gelsinger, vice president of Intel. Hohohoho, so I guess you can imagine how busy he is. My activities right now probably just a piece of cake for him. This book is a present for me from the late Rector of Ciputra University. He picked it personally for me, cool huh?  I got this book because I did his challenge back then when I participated in UPHS youth camp. My lecturer, Mr. Koentjoro, said to me that when he received this book, he suddenly thinks that this book suits me very well hahahaha.  I already read half of it, I promise myself I will finish this book by the end of the holiday. If I have time, I will review this book for you!

                                                                   

Bye for now, gotta start reading J

LOTD: Make up for Dance Performance :) Flame

Now, we finally come to the last look, flame. I did this look for ten minutes all, so pardon me if it is messy here and there hehehe

This is the eye, i use yellow for the crease and blue for the upper crease, and then smudge it nicely, so it looks like a flame,  i hadnt do the eyebrow, so pardon me if it looks messy

I didnt take the final look, because the call is ON! hwaa they had to hurry, but here are our group pictures

LOTD: Make up for Dance Performance :) CATGIRL

Hehehe sorry, i didn`t write too much, i guess after  a lot of paper works, and essays. I dont feel like writing anymore. hahaha final exam has consumed all my writing skills. Anyway, if you have any questions on this look, just leave a comment, i would love to answer

. The next look is called catgirl. Ussually cat girl has smokey eyes, but since the theme is colorful, i created a flirty and youthful catgirl look with green color.

As u see above, i used yellow and gold for the lids, and then green on the eyelids and creme for highlight. Hehehe the key point is to line your eyeliner longer than your actual line. So, when u open your eyes, TARAAA.. it looks real cute like a cat girl!

LOTD: Make up for Dance Performance :) SUNSET

Hi, long time no see yaaa.. I am sorry, i have been busy with my final exam and some preparations. But it is all done now, which means, IT IS TIME TO WRITE! Yeah!

Hehehe, so about two weeks ago, i got another make up job. It was for a GATSBY dance competition, and the team wanted me to do a theme make up. Every girl got a unique make up to reveal their character and their favorite colour. So, i did my best! Lets take a look!

Hmm, this girl loves pink. She is romantic, so i created sunset look for her :)

taraa.. as u see here, i used beautiful colors, such as yellow for the lid, red orangey for upper lid, pink and white for highlighters

hehe this is the final look!

Reflection: Life

My life is beautiful. It is a long road. In my journey, i know i was born to do something and achieve something. I was born to educate and to achieve a lot of things. Not only for my sake, but for others so they can learn. Also, to glorify Him.

My journey is very interesting. Sometimes i go through difficult times. I cry, i struggle, but i push myself not to give up. I count my risk, stay strong, focus on my outcome and i know i am not alone. I have God who always be with me. I am not giving up. No, no way. When i stumble, i get back up again because i know who i lived for.

There are days when i feel so dumb. Freaking dumb. But i dont give up, i keep learning. Yes i am dumb, but if i dont give up, i will be smart later. Yes, i know nothing but if i dont give up i will know later.

There are times when i feel like i am alone. I have no resources, have no money and have no courage to take over the obstacle. Yes, my inferior times. I have no confidence to face my future that seems so bleak. I pray to God, why my dreams are so far ahead. God, my hand are not long enough to reach it! Holy father, is it even possible to get them? I am just a little girl who has no resources. In my mind, i say, " What if?" I ask, what if my parents are rich? I will step more then i am now. What if i got a better colleague? I will have more idea and do more wonderful things. These stones are annoying. God, you know i love to run. I move fast, i work hard, and i love to learn. If i keep meeting obstacles like this, i dont know whether i can achieve Your purpose in me or not.

Then God reminds me some points.

If He gives me so much easyness, i won`t be me. I won`t have a strong heart and hardworking. My character won`t grow, my mind won`t be sharp, my heart won't be humble. Yes, that is right. He never promised to spoil me. He promised me to be with me everywhere I go. My heavenly father will be there and understand my language of tears. He will strengthen me, and along my journey i am understand that is the most important thing. Not a good background, not money, not fame, not talent, but Him and my eagerness to learn in His way.

If He gives me perfect talents. Then i wont know how hard it is to learn and discipline myself. I wont have an emphaty to help my students who has difficulty in learning. I would belittle anyone because i can do everything easily and they don`t. I won`t need Him anymore, because i can do everything easily. There is no more dependency to Him.

If i was born rich. Then i wont know how hard it is to learn money. i wont understand how hard my parents work for me in order to get education. Then i wont value the education itself. I wont be eager to learn in every little chance i have. I wont know how is it feel to work 12 hours everyday and study till the morning to stay in school. I know, yes i know, later my students wont be all rich, some of them may be poor. That time, i will stand by them and say " Hey, i had ever been in your position. Cheer up pals! You have God, stay strong, do your best, and you will overcome!", " Hey, come on, it is okay to work alongside the school. No need to be shy, focus on your outcome and say strong, you will overcome."

If my family weren`t so demanding. Then i wont know about standard. Then i wont take my life seriously. Maybe i will become one of those kid, spending their life for useless things. I wont understand that the most important thing in education is not acknowledgement from your parents. The most important things is to know, and to be a better person. Maybe i will easily give up when people dont acknowledge my work. Maybe i wont used to do my best. I wont know how precious it is to see my parents smile when i got medals and scholarships. Then i will be one of those, grumpie kids who can`t stand again humiliation and hardships. We are living together with people who is hard to please. We are living in a world who talks a lot about standards and achievement. I am grateful because i get to learn how to adapt in this difficult world. Because my family is demanding, later i know what to say to my depressed students with demanding family. I will say, " The core of learning is not acknowledgement, it is not merely pleasing others, dear. It is for you to become a better person. I know that it is exhausting going through something like this, but don`t give up. You will see a light in the darkness"

If people don`t break me down, then i wont know how to get back up. I wont know how to stand again even if i cry. I wont know how to say, " Yes, you can beat me up, but i will fight back" I will do my best to keep the most important thing and learn to let go. Let go let go let go.

If my life were easy and perfect, i am merely a stone and not a gold. Because gold endures much hardships and pressures. Till the end it becomes so pure, and shiny. Even time can`t beat it. My life is beautiful, even my darkest days are beautiful.

My journey is still long. Along the way i find that life is fun. I can learn something everyday. I become a better person. I know how to do something that i dont know before. I gain so much qualities that i dont have before. I can educate others and be an inspiration. Along the way i pick a lot of flowers of lesson and God prepared me to achieve His purpose. I am not afraid anymore. I dont give up. I will run and run and run with Him, to enjoy my life and makes my life a meaningful one. My life is beautiful and i am grateful for that.

Speak Out: Cara mengentaskan kemiskinan di Indonesia part 3

3. Membangun infrastruktur dan mewujudkan stabilitas negara
Indonesia adalah salah satu negara yang sangat diminati investor asing. Dalam sebuah berita, Ibu Marie elka pangestu bercerita bahwa ia gak bisa "istirahat" dalam sebuah pertemuan ekonomi internasional. Ia ditarik kesana kemari dan diajak berbicang - bincang tentang masalah investasi asing ke Indonesia.  Hebat bukan, negara ini? Kalau investor asing masuk, kita bisa menyerap banyak sekali pengangguran. Selain itu, kita bisa alih teknologi, dan menjadi lebih maju. Tapi tetap harus dibatasi ya, jangan sampai investor asing turut merambah sektor vital negara.

Namun sayangnya, investor asing mikir dua kali dan sering membandingkan kita dengan vietnam kalau mau invest di Indo. Semua itu negara kita ini tidak stabil >.<. Tidak stabil plus infrastrukturnya kurang sekali >.< Menurut pengalamanku bekerja dengan investor asing, mereka pusing dengan kondisi Indonesia yang serba tidak teratur. Jalanan rusak, macet dan kurangnya fasilitas umum. Kalau mau mengurus ijin itu, pengacara Indonesia lambat dan minta tambahan uang untuk melicinkan jalan. Oh No!
..Trio kekuatan PMA (penanaman modal asing), PMDN (penanaman modal dalam negeri), dan UKM ( Usaha kecil menengah) bila dikembangkan dengan baik akan meningkatkan GDP negara. Kalau GDP naik, maka pendapatan perkapita meningkat. Bila pendapatan ini terdistribusi dengan baik, Yaaayy, makmurlah Indonesia.


4. Investasi jangka panjang: Mewujudkan pendidikan yang baik
Guru favoritku, pak Hasan pernah bilang. Perangi kebodohan! Hehehe karena kebodohan membuat orang menjadi miskin. Kita sudah memasuki era globalisasi dimana lapangan kerja terbuka luas. Kita bisa kerja di luar negeri, dan orang luar negeri bisa kerja di Indonesia. Fun? Yes. tapi konsekuensinya, saingan kita bukan lagi orang negeri sendiri, tapi orang asing juga. Mampukah kita menyaingi mereka? Nah, pendidikan adalah kunci untuk menyiapkan anak - anak bangsa untuk bersaing di era globalisasi. Memperlengkapi anak bangsa dengan iman, tujuan hidup, skill, pengetahuan dan karakter yang baik adalah poin - poin yang harus diperjuangkan dalam pendidikan masa kini :).

Speak Out: Cara mengentaskan kemiskinan di Indonesia part 2

Haiii, lanjut lagi ya tentang cara mengentaskan kemiskinan di Indonesia :)

2. Berantas korupsi

Hehehe kedengarannya klise banget ya, tapi buatku, memberantas korupsi tetep aja penting untuk memberantas kemiskinan. Pertama kali menyadari hal ini pas SMP, mata pelajaran PPKN, sewaktu guru lagi menjelaskan tentang fungsi pajak. Aku masih inget banget kalau salah satu fungsi pajak itu untuk memeratakan pendapatan. Gunanya untuk bikin jembatan, jalan, bikin lampu jalan, telepon umum, trotoar dsb. Selain itu, juga untuk mendanai pondok sosial, Jamkesmas, BOS, dan orang - orang homeless yang ada di jalan - jalan. Yaa, segala hal yang berhubungan dengan kepentingan bersama masyarakat lha. Sekarang kalian nangkep ga apa hubungannya? Hmmm, supaya nggak klise, aku buatin sebuah cerita.

Korupsi >,<

Karena korupsi, uang negara gak cukup untuk bikin jembatan. Jadinya, hutang deh sama negara lain. Akhirnya hutang negara jadi menumpuk >.<

Selain itu, kalaupun dananya sudah ada, karena ada korupsi saat proses pembuatan jembatan, kualitasnya dikurangi. Akhirnya jembatan roboh, kayak cerita jembatan Kertanegara.

Karena jembatannya roboh, maka perlu uang untuk ngangkat puing - puing pakai balon dan bikin jembatan lagi. Uangnya? Utang lagi. Tambah miskin.

Terus, berita tentang jembatan roboh jadi berita internasional deh. Para investor asing jadi malas taruh uang di Indonesia karena infrastrukturnya jelek. Mereka lari ke vietnam dan bangun usaha disana. Gross domestic product yang seharusnya tambah meningkat, tetap stagnan. Pengangguran kehilangan lapangan pekerjaan. Tambah miskin.

Ketika pengangguran ini mencoba bikin usaha sendiri ( industri kecil dan menengah), mereka butuh modal. Dana bantuan untuk mereka dikorupsi  dan orang - orang ini kekurangan modal. Tetap miskin. Nah, dengan modal pas - pasan mereka tetap bersikeras bikin usaha sendiri. Maka pergilah mereka untuk mengurus surat ijin usaha. Astaganagaaa.. Sungguh berbelit - belit, kalau mau cepat maka harus kasih uang pelicin dulu. Akhirnya uang habis dan ijin belum keluar. Tambah miskin.

Karena miskin sekali >.<, mereka hanya bisa buka di pinggiran jalan dan jadi pedagang kaki lima. Suatu hari Satpol PP datang dan mengusir mereka layaknya anjing kudisan. Ada yang dipukuli, dimaki - maki, dan dihancurkan kedainya. Sebenarnya petugas ini bisa jadi baik kok, asal dikasi uang. Sayangnya orang - orang ini ga punya uang, jadinya mereka harus pasrah diperlakukan seperti binatang.

Akhirnya orang - orang ini jadi pengangguran lagi. Tambah miskin, putus asa, plus sakit hati luar biasa. Sakit ini semakin berdarah - darah ketika mereka melihat Gayus Tambunan dan para koruptor lain di TV. Rumah mewah, tas pocket penuh dengan uang dollar, naik haji setiap tahun, dan hidup bagaikan raja. Aaaa.. Perih!

Akhirnya orang - orang ini ramai - ramai berdemo di depan DPR. Mereka marah sekali! Mereka jadi garang dan berkelahi dengan polisi. Polisi melempar gas air mata dan menembak kaki pendemo. Aaaa.. bertambah lagi satu, sakit tubuh karena luka tembak!

Keluarga mereka menangis keras - keras. Uang tidak punya, kini anggota keluarga mereka terluka. Akhirnya, berbekal JAMKESMAS, pergilah mereka ke rumah sakit. Ternyata, di rumah sakit, mereka tidak boleh masuk karena pihak rumah sakit tidak lagi terima JAMKESMAS. Sudah berbulan - bulan dana JAMKESMAS tak turun lagi. 

Keluarga ini berdoa dan duduk di trotoar depan rumah sakit. Jalanan berdebu. Orang lalu lalang, namun tak sedikitpun bertindak dan menolong mereka. Mereka juga sibuk, harus menyelamatkan diri sendiri di negeri yang curang ini. Seminggu telah berlalu, kaki dengan bekas luka tembak itu telah menjadi biru. Bau, dengan ulat - ulat di dalamnya. Keluarga ini mulai kebingungan. Mereka bertanya - tanya pada orang. " Kalau kakinya sudah kayak begini, apa yang akan terjadi sama bapak?" Orang itu menjawab, " Kakinya harus diamputasi supaya tidak menjalar ke bagian lain.Cepet diamputasi lho, bu, kalau tidak bisa bahaya" 

Ketika orang yang tertembak itu mendengar hal ini, menangislah ia. Sudah miskin, tambah miskin, putus asa, sakit hati, dendam, dan kini ia tahu kalau ia akan cacat. Seluruh keluarga juga menangis bersamanya. Si anak dengan gelap mata, mengambil parang, turun ke jalan dan merampok sepeda motor. Seorang gadis kehilangan sepeda motor dan kehilangan tangannya karena dibacok.

Uang penjualan sepeda motor itu kemudian dipakai untuk mengamputasi kaki si bapak yang terkena luka tembak. Seluruh keluarga bangga sekali dengan si anak. Ia telah menyelamatkan hidup si Bapak. Akhirnya, Bapak itu akhirnya seumur hidup hanya bisa tidur di dipan. 

Suatu malam, polisi menggedor rumah keluarga itu. Anak itu ditangkap dengan tuduhan pencurian sepeda motor. Seluruh keluarga menangis, " Anak ku anak baik - baik! tidak mungkin ia mencuri! Ia rajin beribadah dan tak pernah berbohong. Jangan tangkap dia pak polisi!" Tapi anak itu akhirnya ditangkap karena bukti sudah kuat. Miskin. tambah miskin, putus asa, depresi, sakit hati, dendam, cacat, rusak akhlak, penjahat, kehilangan anak. 

Tuh kan, korupsi merusak berbagai hal. Ia sumber segala kemiskinan, ketidakpercayaan masyarakat kepada pemerintah, ketidak percayaan masyarakat asing kepada Indonesia, bahkan kebobrokan masing - masing individu. Ketika seorang pelayan masyarakat melakukan korupsi uang negara, ia sedang memikirkan dirinya sendiri. Sedih ya, padahal indonesia dikenal punya budaya korupsi. Artinya, banyak orang yang menjabat di pemerintahan sedang memikirkan kepentingannya sendiri. Kalau kita masing - masing memikirkan diri sendiri terus menerus, pada hakekatnya kita bukan lagi sebuah negara. Karena negara didirikan untuk mencapai kemakmuran bersama dan kepentingan bersama. Kita hanya orang - orang yang sikut - sikutan mencari untung bagi diri sendiri di negeri yang curang ini.

Jadi, korupsi harus diberantas. Setuju?